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ORD LO

2009-10-03T03:52:00.000-07:00

YES ORD LOH! yeah orded liao.after 2 yrs battle won huh ahaha.time juz flies.

strange tat tho been waiting 4 tis dae like 4eva when the dae comes i didnt feel particularly happy or wat.juz wanted to get back ic and get the hell out of the camp.heh tho it does brings back wonderful (or not) memories.

yeah starting afresh everitin.wats past for tis 2 yrs shall remain behind.wats the point of holding on n making ownself suffer.i m sure time will tell.

双手紧握拳头张开又留下什麽
敲响命运的钟谁能带走伤痛活在被拉扯的时空

伤痕就这麽多所以又代表什麽
等待适合的风带我飞越尽头曾经脆弱独自承受伤痛

曾经爱过以后心痛放手人总要学会软弱
曾经活著痛著你也能轻松看透

我用我的无赖遮掩谎言从前我太好骗
荒唐剧情随时都会上演
你用你的正义对抗可怜善变虚伪的世界最后被我撕裂

你用你的正义对抗这可怜虚伪善变破碎的夜狼狈崩溃颓废天黑最后被我撕裂

020809

2009-08-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

time passes so fast.unknowingly i been using tis blog for 2 yrs tho its juz random n emo post .lol.

it was a sudden shock when i c the number appear.i certainly didnt expect it to appear again.yes again.and yes i noe who u r hw can i 4get.u caught mi by surprise.even tho i find tat no. familiar i had to tink again which shows i m succeeding in 4geting who u r but yet u juz had to remind mi at tis time.i've trying so hard to 4get everitin abt u and telling myself u dun even exist.yes it mite sound so childish but different ppl had different ways of coping wif tins i tink for mi tat way works out.u nv failed to make my heart skip a beat whenever the mere mention of ur name or anitin related to u.

i m awaes trying ways to escape,avoid or convince myself u dun exist at all.in my foolish attempt to 4get tat the no. ever shown up i make a fool of myself drinking and making myself drunk and getting the worst hangover.implicating my poor frens who had to drag mi literally home and tolerate my vomiting.come to tink of it,it was a realli stupid attempt.but we all like doing tins on the spur of moment isnt it.

m awaes contradiciting myself,wld like to c u even 1 glance so much but yet on the other hand afraid to c u.i m nearly succeeding in 4getting who u r but u juz had to remind mi all over again.and yes the drink to 4get part is bullshit.u 4get for the moment but once u wake up everitin comes back.

till nw i still wonder if its a gd tin i didnt reply cos i dunno wat to sae.4give mi.

happy bdae

2009-06-07T06:10:00.000-07:00

A very happy bdae to u even tho u may not get to see tis post..

The mere mention of ur name or pictures tat has u be it anywhere still bring a stop to my heart.even tho i have been trying means and way to escape or avoid the 1 tin tat will awaes be there is memories.memories tat consists of the gd and the bad.i may appear to have erase everitin abt u but i noe its impossible to do tat.

Heard from fren tat u had some obstacles recently but didnt dare to probe further.i noe u will awaes have a way out because u r a independent individual who nv bow down to difficulties.funny hw i awaes make u angry during ur bdaes tho i noe its my fault but still wen its mine u will awaes take the extra effort to do sumtin special.i was touched but didnt show u as i had tat stupid pride with me.my world came falling down wen we parted but i nv let u noe hw unbearable it is initially.as time goes by i tot slowly let it go and go by the "time heals everitin".till nw its gg to be 2 yrs since but still everitin seems like yesterday.so crystal clear.yet i m happy cos lessons are awaes meant to be learnt the hard way and indeed i have learnt so much from u. u deserve the happiness u work so hard to achieve n i believe u have it wif u now.

lastly,a very happi 21st bdae to u wingyin on 120688. cos u r still the lil princess and will awaes be to me.

091108

2008-11-09T06:03:00.000-08:00

Congrats! to... mr ling on ur ord in less than 24 hrs.haha bet u been waiting 4 tis dae 4 so so long.as usual been a great great help.understand u been thu the whole transition .tough on ya.i'll awaes rmb ur famous quote"yi nian hou de jin tian".nw is reli yi nian hou liao.lol. time for ur new course.CCC=civilian conversion course.1 u wld gladly look 4ward to.gd luck to any future endeavours.

Well...every beginning has an end.an sumone's ending will awaes be another's new beginning.wat started out as a mere juz for fun blog ended up being my tots for the past yr plus.the blog has served its purpose.its juz a barrier for my moving on towards.thus it will juz be memories.indeed tins dat i can properly express out will be penned down here. heh

on the other hand..thx abc lol.

its awaes nice to have a balance of everitin.slow down the pace n u will realise u miss so much tins tat u nv used to notice.all the lil small tins tat nv caught ur attention.life is too short to be wasted.even the small tins can juz meant so much.u mite nv know whose dae u r making a difference.

and yeah...a very thank u.to tat sumone. hope u feel the same too...=)

NiCkz kiM hUai rEn
signing off.

021108

2008-11-02T05:14:00.000-08:00

everyday so mani ppl pass by u.yet hw mani is able to enter your life?we all meet different ppl at different time,the wrong person at the corect time or the rite person at the wrong time.so whats urs?guess its all abt timing.

i used to tink y sum tinks cant be sae directly.isnt it much more simpler if ppl juz sae wat they want directly instead of putting meaning in the words?wat if those who cant catch it juz miss sumtin which they mite ltr regret it?its a tough price to learn.
there are some who noe wat each other wants,wat they mean without too much words said but all tis is based thru years of understanding.but nt all are able to do tat even if they are ur closest.

i'm still paying for the mistake for the past yr.even till nw i still am nt able to understand wat it meant.guess tis is sumtin which no 1 will be able to teach.for every lesson there's bound to be teacher and student.yet there are sum who is able to learn their own.m stuck in tis lesson where the Q is juz too difficult to be solve.till i m able to solve by myself i wun be able to proceed to the next Q.

i didnt sae cos theres sumtin i wldnt wan to spoil.cos its sumtin i wldnt have dare to do in the past.wat caused the change is unknown but 1 tin is for certain u wld have sae i m crazy if i told u so.i can safetly sae it isnt cos of the voidness but mebe the story we went thru.even tho its different in some ways but i feel in some ways its similar.i wldnt wan to scare u either.

guess the gates of hell is beckoning me.till den.

271008

2008-10-27T07:07:00.000-07:00

If good tins are to happen in threes...wheres the third?guess it wont be coming.
but unlucky streaks juz kip cuming...juz bring all at 1 go instead of one by one.theres awaes a limit to hw much 1 can take isnt it..

life's awaes contradiciting.no matter wat happen we are awaes taught to learn to have preserverance and nt to give up yet on the other hand,we are often told there are things we have to learn to let go.

guess theres no motivation to look 4ward to this wk.hell wk juz began.

oh ya.hey i m serious.not joking tat nite.heh.till then.

261008

2008-10-25T22:19:00.000-07:00

heh ..every tin kinda sucks nw..the food the work juz abt anitin.

pls do let me noe if i seem irritating to u cos i pretty look 4ward to the simple replying which will reli bring a smile to my face in hell.

on the other hand it pretty sux tho i was mentally prepared.guess its ur way of saying "no"?lol

191008

2008-10-18T10:21:00.000-07:00

我找不到很好的原因
去阻挡这一切的情意
这感觉太奇异
我抱歉不能说明
奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔的侵袭
也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险
请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
我想我会开始想念你可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧

181008

2008-10-18T01:14:00.000-07:00

轻轻放
我就是卸不下对你的喜欢
原来爱会慢慢增加重量
想关上这城市所有的灯光
黑暗中专心闻你的发香

这夜晚
让暗恋更有画面感
回想
你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
原来真心送出爱是这么简单
温馨荧幕上你可爱的模样
关于缘份的解释我又多传了一行
原来爱情可以来得这么突然
短信的桥梁将暧昧期拉长

电视场
吵杂的情歌还在拼命播放
我安静在闹区等来电铃响
有一些话打好了却不敢传
怕收到信息的你在为难
街道上人潮衬托我的孤单
想象谁幸运地陪在你身旁却误会一场

151008

2008-10-15T06:19:00.001-07:00

爱转角遇见了
谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪

也许陌生到了解
让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪
不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我
就是我的美

121008

2008-10-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

Congrats! to...cpl lim haha or shld i sae MR LIM on ur ord.been waiting long 4 tis dae huh.seriouslly thx for the valuable help and contributions in everything.experience reli counts man.haha.even tho its a short 3 mths but it felt like quite long seen u disrupt back here.ur nv selfish and willingly to offer help.reli appreciate.all the best in ur new working enviornment and thx for the treat man.

how i wish i had answer to every Q poping out of my head.i often wonder isit the differences in the background or my inferiority thats holding me back.this mite sound reli crazy but yeah..its true...

121008

2008-10-12T02:45:00.000-07:00

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配

i miss the small nite chats...seriouslly lol
when's the nxt time u gonna appear?

061008

2008-10-06T07:10:00.000-07:00

原来有些事情並没有錯

過只是晚到了一點

051008

2008-10-04T21:32:00.000-07:00

初次见面就占据我心中
无数星空只为了你等候
每个角落擦肩而过被缘分捉弄
突然相遇在转角的街头
太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过不能错过对你的承诺
我不太浪漫你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手用全力向天空尽情呐喊
我会很爱你一百个世纪
很爱很爱你没人能代替
未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你四季不休息
打开Walkman 随时就能听见你
Feel my heart 我最爱最爱的你

突然相遇在转角的街头太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过不能错过对你的承诺
我不太浪漫你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手用全力向天空尽情呐喊
我会很爱你一百个世纪很爱很爱你
没人能代替未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你四季不休息
打开Walkman 随时就能听见你
Feel my heart 我最爱最爱的你
我会很爱你一百个世纪
很爱很爱你没人能代替
未来旅行 Walkmam记录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你用我的生命
很爱很爱你你给我勇气
跨越寂寞走到幸福那一头
Feel my heart
我最爱最爱的你

031008

2008-10-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

i guess i realli dono hw to express myself.Even tho i got so much to sae but i nv reli did "bump" into u since then.It may sound ridiculous but it felt i've known u for a long time.S..e..r..i..o..u..s... la.haha

oh thx my dearest csm for the guard duty bestow to me on hari raya.even tho deep inside im cursing and swearing but still luckily for the off u given me..if nt @@##$%$%^.and thx to the fact single ppl can do guard duty with no committments.gd or bad?lol

300908

2008-09-30T09:55:00.000-07:00

i m utterly stunned by the "surprise" u have given me.zzz

290908

2008-09-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

cmon let me have sometin to look 4ward to every wkend can?lol.

what is the invisible barrier that is created?to purposely to distance urself from others?y look upon everybody as tho they were ur enemy?r u afraid?

the hardest part is not keeping what doesnt belong to u but letting go of sumtin that belongs to u.

280908

2008-09-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

i seriously hate waking up to a empty house where u realised its just a house with 4 walls.i missed home cook food too.

in time to come

2008-09-21T14:30:00.000-07:00

i wanna go watch movie with u,go to the singapore flyer with u,go stroll the beach with u,go travelling,do the simple tins with u.

but...who will the u be.i tend to find out within the next 1 yr. may our fate n path cross each other.

if it reli happens,i promise i swear i seriously will cherish it.

till next time....

200908

2008-09-20T01:42:00.000-07:00

i guess sumtimes fate do play a part.while i read abt wat happen i guess u r gg thru a hard time.but i guess tis process is where everybody has been thru b4 juz tat the amount of pain is different i guess and the amt of time it takes to heal.its nv easy i wld sae.initially i did feel we r alike in sum ways but as time passes i wld ask myself is tis wat i want or perhaps nt.

but whatever it is i wish u speedy recovery and awaes to cheer up whenever u think of tins tat make u hurt.cos i guess time doesnt heal all wound but frends does.but i do believe u will make a gd frenz.so take care stranger.its been a nice short encounter.

mooncake festival 14/9

2008-09-14T04:31:00.000-07:00

yup its the annual mooncake festival once again.so my guess wld be the places u all will be at is prob the chinese garden? lol standard place to go during tis festival.but its a realli nice place to visit.lots of statues and shops.

yeah 1 more dae to my 1 year soldier.not tat its anitin worth celebrating but it marks my halfway journey man.last yr tis dae i can still remeber clearly we were at chevron drinking and singing to "celebrate" my enlisting to the start of adulthood.LOL. woke up nxt dae early and enlistment start,even tho we was abt to separated from the ppl sending mi in i cldnt bear to watch them leave.leaving mi in a island for the next 2 wks wif god noes who.but luckily my plt mates and bunk mates were all ncie ppl.thus making the stay there easier to cope with the daes ending pass.

i wanted to go chevron yst nt becos of any ulterior motives but becos it holds sumtin meaning during tis date last yr.even tho ppl mite nt trust mi but tats ok cos mebe sumhow i didnt quite manage to earn ppl's trust.which is a difficult tin to do i tink.the onli tin tat remain was huang was wif mi at the place.mebe u wun noe but sumhow i have u to thank thruout tis journey during tis pass few mths.indeed grateful to u for the listening ears,companionship and advices u gave.the ubin cycling trip we went i kinda miss them.lets go there sumdae man shall we haha.mebe after 1 yr i wun be like the daredevil i used to.

some loud music and booze

2008-08-31T03:42:00.000-07:00

small gathering during wkend. loud music plus great companion.quite fun.isit ur hamster eyes or tat bubbly character? cldnt quite placed it.lets see hw it goes.
End

240808

2008-08-24T06:07:00.000-07:00

ahm wasnt exactly fun.it was more like muddy.mud everywhere.haven started running the shes filled wif mud.hw r u recently?duin well i hope.

2008-08-11T02:42:00.000-07:00

Life can be fragile.
where everything can end in split seconds.
Every promises made will be forgotten sooner forget.
Because people move on and put you in a place in their heart where they occasionally visits
To remincse and to remember you by.
But when the memories hurt too much or has long gone stale,you are soon tucked away in the furthest corner of the heart,the one where no one will ever visit again.

..

2008-08-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

its been a yr plus since tis blog was cre8ted.from being juz a anoymous blog just created 4 fun to sumtin i pen down my thoughts.from last yr hungry ghost festival to this yr hungry ghost festival. been a long lunar year huh.haha.

currently been in army for mebe 11 mths? haa hw times flies.from a botak rec to nw.its been a long journey.no more trainee life hopefully.i awaes think back of the times through some hardship and luckily there was awaes gd frens to be there to share the hard traning and i m realli thankful for it.the 6 daes field camp where we werent allowed to bathe and crawl in the mud here and there.the times where me n my buddy would built our basha and think of ways hw to prevent our rifle from being stun.the times where we lie inside the basha and becos we cldnt slp and started sharing our problems.thx buddy for the listening ear.frens are part of our life but they cant possibly be there 4 u 24/7 and there will certainly be times u will wonder wat u r duin here and how r u gg to cope wif problems alone.i used to run awae from problems and didnt dare to face them.now i suppose i still do.

sometimes i wld think of u and start feeling ashame of myself.the way how i treated u in the past and mebe this is kharma i suppose.now that u have the best isnt it.i suppose so.so many chances yet i didnt know hw to cherish till it hit mi tat u r reli gone for gd.sumwhere in the corner of my heart ur space will awaes be untaken no matter by who.even tho i hate hw well u noe mi in the past,everitin u said abt mi was true but i juz dont wan to face it,dont dare to face it.dat u sae even if there was a last chance i wont do anitin abt it.i didnt know hw to defend myself tat its nt tat i didnt want the chance..guess its sumtin i guess nobody knows isnt it.its been quite a while isnt it i guess what they sae abt time healing all wound isnt exactly true.u juz learn to live with it.i used to struggle everynite when slping mebe i still do sumtimes but deep inside i sincerely wish u happiness mrs chan.

do take care.

....

2008-07-20T06:12:00.000-07:00

loss of words,loss of speech.

2008-07-20T06:10:00.001-07:00

2008-07-20T06:09:00.001-07:00

choices

2008-07-13T09:54:00.000-07:00

life is often about making choices isnt it.the moment u walk out of my life i realised the choice u make.nobody force u.its a choice u make willingly.

2008-06-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

我不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了我的日子也能过
他不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

2008-06-26T10:51:00.000-07:00

now i understand y its important to let a person speak wat he/she wants b4 interupptinig becos by interruping she/he cant get the message across,y its always so difficult to sae a simple word such a sorry becos of sumtin call pride.its seriouslly nt worth it.i guess i learn it all too late.tat pride is not everitin but losing everitin to pride is anth story i guess.

ndp

2008-06-21T07:40:00.000-07:00

wkends burn cos of ndp.everidae routine to get u off my mind it seems.apparently it doesnt work too well isnt it.i need a memory lapse.juz let it fade.fade it all away.

2008-06-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

happy bdae to u ...tat sum1 special.hope u had a enjoyable bdae.

unit life

2008-06-07T00:24:00.000-07:00

passed out and posted to bedok camp 2.guards camp.wtf.jurong to there?!but there's awaes sumtin to learn everywhere.being a sgt u r nt below but nt up there either.so u r awaes the middle man between ur men and ur superior.if ur man's late ur DO cum looking and asking y they r late.kinda sucks.command n control ceertainly isnt a easy thing to cope.2 wks there n i feel like hell.

journey for the past 9 months

2008-05-19T03:02:00.000-07:00

passing out tis 23 may.looking back the last few mths of journey.its been a road of ups and downs.sometimes i think back how i could have got through all this shit happening at the same time yet at the wrong time.from starting of bmt to sispec to nw mp.half of the journey in ns is almost up no more fieldcamps(hopefully).having u to rely on to become suddenly finding myself walking down this road alone.its amazing to think back how it all started n end.i will miss the times where i could juz lay down on a big empty grass patch and looking up at the sky full of stars slowly dozing off and thinking what lies ahead for me before yet another new day begins.

may

2008-05-03T14:17:00.000-07:00

sometimes not expressing doesnt mean sumone doesnt like or love,its just tat he has his own difficulties.i understand hw it felt when u cant express hw u feel.terrible isnt it? to just watch u leave.

may

2008-05-03T14:14:00.000-07:00

2008-04-06T04:34:00.000-07:00

cos i just miss u tat damn much.the most difficult tin to overcome is yourself.the inner me tat just refuses to let go....no matter what.

2008-03-16T01:46:00.000-07:00

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着

冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
起了谁改变
如果再重来会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭不是因为在乎

bei ying

2008-03-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

三公分阳光
三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印

一直向前走
走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

tui hou

2008-03-02T00:03:00.000-08:00

this world can very very big but yet it can consists of onli 2 person
a 2 person world can be much warmer than the outside world because just a simple hug will bring wamth to each other
a 2 person world can be easily contented because happiness is juz simple smile from each other.
a person's world can be much quieter compare to outside because u can onli hear each other's voices.

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺全
被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

accepting and unaccepting

2008-03-01T07:45:00.001-08:00

there are mani times in life where we have to accept the unacceptable in life.
accept u seeking ur own happiness...
yet cant accept the love that wun hold,slowly disappearing...
accept that wateva we do muz speak the truth,yet cant accept the real truth...

actually i onli hope this world will still have some places that can accept mi.

....

2008-03-01T07:41:00.000-08:00

from nw onwards the heart wun beat,sweat wun have any passion,meals wun have any taste,till the day i die full of regrets.

i realli hate hw well u noe me when i want to prove that its wrong..u will always be rite in the end...

wu zhuan

2008-03-01T07:34:00.000-08:00

circumstances will always force ppl to reveal the "fake" side of him...
when u sae wat u wanted to sae i gave a depise look,wat i depise is actually my coldness to u..
i used to tink wateva u do was troublesome,but ur source of trouble comes from me..
this "fake" side actually will break open when touch,because in fornt of ur loved ones no matter who will be vulnerable.

insistence

2008-02-23T16:11:00.000-08:00

the mani tins that we insist in are juz subconsciously lying to ourself.
insist that the tins i do meant well for u,but in actual fact juz lying to myself not regretful...
insist watever i do muz be a 100 marks but in actual fact is living under your judgement..

have i woken up from these insistence..?

will it be a miracle that woke mi up?
will it be the silent echos at nite?
or isit your leaving background??

what really wake mi up is your insistence to go and do what u believe in.
your insistence to find your true happiness..

the bus which i didnt manage to catch

2008-02-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

the bus i tried to catch juz kip moving forward..human cant outrun bus isnt it..just 3 bustop and its gone...watching the bus leave its like watching sumtin in the bus leave..

sry mum if i ever speak to u in a harsh or impatient voice.i dont mean to.i noe its my fault.u were always there no matter wat.u always use wat u tin is the best ways to educate and make mi understand tins.i m glad i had ur protection for the past 22 years and counting..when i was down u were there to offer ur companion be it dinner or going out.i really appreciate it.the advices u give will always be on my mind. thank u mum.

2008-02-10T01:07:00.000-08:00

my 9 yr buddy tried to "kill" mi in gym yst.wtf. lol jian si bu jiu meh...haha wat we sae few yrs ago almost came true.haha frens always have great influence towards us.be it good or bad.the decision to leave isnt always make by u alone.frends did influence u isnt it.mebe they had ur interest in heart.maybe....

我要控制我自己
不会让谁看见我哭泣
装作漠不关心你
不愿想起你
怪自己没有勇气

心痛得无法呼吸
找不到你留下的痕迹
眼睁睁的看着你
却无能为力
任你消失在
世界的尽头
找不到坚强的理由
再也感觉不到你的温柔
告诉我星空在那头
那里是否有尽头

心痛得无法呼吸
找不到昨天留下多痕迹
眼睁睁的看见你
却无能为力
任你消失在
世界的尽头

找不到坚强的理由
再也感觉不到你的温柔
告诉我星空在那头
那里是否有尽头
就向流星许个心愿
让你知道我爱你

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

2008-02-07T04:56:00.000-08:00

何必太悲哀
多少爱可以重来
上天的安排
事到如今
怎样去改
不要再期待
对自己坦白
为你跳进忘情苦海
死去再活来

2008-02-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

there is no reason for me to escape,even if i fail the most return to the starting point.
even if wan to retreat oso put in your 100% b4 retreating..
wan to die,also battle 1st b4 dying..

its u who bought endless laughter and warmth to my world.if only time can stop there.sorry..

2008-02-04T22:00:00.000-08:00

when ppl grow up,there are lots of "dont have"
times when you dont have ppl to take care of u..
times when you some tins just seems impossible and you dont have the courage to face it
times when you dont have the answer to some questions..
times when unreasonable obstacles just pop out in ur life and you don have the right way to handle it..
but
what makes ppl grow up is also a the "dont have" we encounter...

2/2

2008-02-03T00:43:00.000-08:00

had a small gathering wif sum bmt buddies.jason WEE i c ur smiling face haha.isnt it hw funny hw u always ask us recommend gers cos u juz want to have sum1 to have dinner or catch movie wif during wkends.nw it finally came true 4 u man.feeling happi 4 u seriouslly frm the bottom of my heart.frm ur face i can c hw xing fu u r ok..all the best to u 2 k.glad u r able to move on after so long.i noe it isnt ez but sumhow u manage to do it.i realli respect u for tat.

isnt it hw funny on every special occasion i will awaes tink back 1 yr ago on tis date wat happen and i wld be surpise hw within 1 yr so much can change.sumhow it amazes mi tat nth stays the same.where is the courage i used to have in the beginning when i wan to make everytin happen hw determine i wan to do it even if the odds r slim n against mi,nt to mention time factor.the slight tinge of pain will awaes be there but i believe wif the passing time i hope it will bring along the pain away.

widf each passing yr and memorable event the mood juz differs.dun ask mi y.even if i noe i wun wan to believe in the reason.if there is 1 ppl i have to tank 4 its u mr wong qifu.thx 4 the cakes and everytin.thx 4 the listening ear to my whining and sulking of sorrows.also ur precious time sitting at void decks giving mi ur opionions.even tho in the end it was 1 who muz battle alone,i still thank u for ur advice from the bottom of my heart thx.thx for the past few yrs for being the listening ear and may our frendship last down the road.

everything happens for a reason.i happen to be at the wrong place at the correct time.all the words isnt true.

2008-01-27T01:37:00.000-08:00

now i understand...
y food always taste so delicious even if its juz a simple meal wif u
y every movements of yours had suck a great effect on mi
y i always look forward to ur every sms or calls
y i always feel the pain when u r sad
y i m happi whenever i c u smiling happily
y i can always slp smiling when u r nxt to me
y u wld always buy small gifts
y it pained me more than anitin else to watch u leave
y i muz learn to grow up

the many Ys which came too late..

when the sky pours

2008-01-27T01:25:00.000-08:00

i have nv given up.
dont give up continue to work hard.
even if it realli appears i dun gib it a chase all tis wun matters animore.
no matter wat,i pray for the chance and time to be on my side.i just wan to prove that i have grown and am ready.even if by then its too late,i will just smile and wish u all the best.
in the end u r all that matter to me be it nw or in the future.

often the most important tins is always the 1 hardest to let go.i m letting go a lil at a time no because i have given up but because u deserve the best.not like the past which put u through turmoil.

ppl tend to tink a lot when they r alone,be it negative or postiive thots.no one can stay standing in the same place.y nt make a change for urself and fite for the tins that realli matters to u instead of just waiting for it to come back.

fate vs time

2008-01-26T11:03:00.000-08:00

been few mths since last blog? lol last post was abt complaining abt army and all tat.well in a blink of eye pop and nw in sispec training.so much happen few tis few short months.the ups and downs..mebe no ups but def down.learn to grow up within tis period of time.coping wif new training.so called leader to be and the responsibilty.losing loved ones.much tins juz ran thru my mind.dont noe where to begin but it def ended.nv knew losing sumtin so impt and be so pain till u dun wanna hope its true and happening.dono what holds in the future.told myself nv to give up no matter hard it is,hw tough or wat lies ahead.but seeing tins in reality juz puts a different meaning to everitin.dun wanna face reality juz wanna live in my own world but in the end u juz had to accept the reality be it cruel or harsh.tats wat makes us grow isnt it.sumhow or rather u cant 4get sum1 completely..u juz learn to live w/o them.from being so depended on sum1 till suddenly u had to depend on urself.i truely admire how u cope wif it few yrs ago and y m i still stuck here.whenever i tink back i dono whether its sweet r bitter.you make mi grow up,thus i have u to thank for it.be it for myself or u.slowly wif u getting on wif ur new life i sincerely wish u all the best in the road ahead.i m glad our path crossed once and even tho it left u wif nitemare, i m truely regret for tins i done and tins i did not do.i m not escaping reality.its juz that i need the time to grow and learn to be a better man.be it through the hard way or so.i dun like leaving my life to fate but sumtimes i noe in life thee are just tins u cannot control.u r awaes on my mind and always will be.sumwhere at the corner of that place cor memories u will be there always.even tho action speaks lousder than words.i will pray by the time its not too late to fite for the 1 tins and only matters to me.all the promises we make tgt,be it 1 sided or not.i nv regret crossing path wif u.all the best to u.

huo zai xin fu zong de ni,shi fou hui ji di wo...
wu lun lu you duo yao yuan,duo xing ku..
wo yi ran hui wang zhe zuo...
jiu suan zai zong dian bu shi ni...
ye jiang shi ge mei hao de wei lai ba...

enlistment

2007-09-14T00:35:00.000-07:00

less than 24 hrs till enlistment.Sianx. for those tat has POP.fuck u lol. botak cuming in liao muahaha.

army daze

2007-08-26T06:59:00.001-07:00

Less than 2 wks plus till army.how???!!!!!haha

hungry ghost festival

2007-08-12T09:08:00.001-07:00

ok.its the hungry ghost festival month.dun stay out too late and anihow sae tins sia.wahahah.

genting trip

2007-07-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

genting was damn cold...BUT .....fun .seriouslly fun.even if it s juz my mum who went wif mi but def fun.haha.looking 4ward to 2nd trip.

secret

2007-07-13T10:48:00.000-07:00

this is a secret blog nobody knows.ahaha

testing

2007-06-22T09:29:00.001-07:00

testing testing.this blog nt ez to use

testing

2007-06-20T05:48:00.001-07:00